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My Testimony

***** My Testimony *****

Before I became a Christian, I always thought when we had some troubles, we had to solve them all by ourselves. I figured I could do things on my own, and people who trusted in God were weak. I thought I’d never depend on God. I was very strong and independent, and also I had a lot of pride. I had a nice husband, children, home, job, everything. I boasted about my life. I could get everything as I wished. I was so happy.

But suddenly my prideful life came crashing down. When my daughter was 3 years old, we found out she has a high-functioning autism. Can you imagine the doctor all at once telling you “your child has a disorder”? Since then I couldn’t accept her disorder for a long time. I panicked and couldn’t do anything. Or I would say to myself, “I am a mother, I must be strong.” My husband and parents consoled me, though I felt emptiness. My daughter couldn’t speak, and she always had panic attacks and just cried and screamed, everyday. Also my son saw at my face. I was too tired to raise my children. I knew it was very bad for my son. But I was lost. I always wanted to kill myself.

One day my friend invited my son to be a member of Ranger Kids and me to be in Gospel choir. So we went to the church every Wednesday. We learned about God and the Bible. About one year passed. One day, I don’t know why but I took my children to the church for Sunday worship. This time I listened to Pastor’s message. It was telling me about Jesus and how much He loves me and it was beautiful. After worship, Pastor said to me, “Take it easy. You are a great mother. You just believe in Jesus and let Him lead you.”

God worked a miracle because I kept going to the church every Sunday. Jesus spoke to us “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” (Matthew 7:7) At last, the door was opened to me. I allowed God to soothe me. I allowed the words from the Gospel songs and messages to bring me to realize how much I am loved by my Heavenly Father.

Therefore my stubborn heart was getting warmer and warmer. My children seemed to be very happy. In the church everyone prayed for her and prayed for us. And she has changed day by day. It is incredible. I am growing up together with my children in the church. My faith became stronger.

Now my daughter goes to school and is in a regular class just like her older brother. Certainly I have to give special care to her everyday, but I do not worry. Because I believe in God and He leads us. Jesus said to us about worry; “Therefore do not worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:34) So I believe everything is going to be OK.

I started to know God who loves us so much. I asked Him to come into my life and forgive my sins. I prayed, “Lord come to me and forgive me. Lord, thank you for your unconditional love for each one of us”. God loves us all in the same way. He is waiting for each of us to call on Him and invite Him in.

“He has made everything beautiful in its time.” (Ecclesiastes 3:11)

Thank you.

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