i feel happy naturaly sometimes and sometimes " oh, why happened like this to me? " I thought. I meet new friends and things after losing something. Nobody knows when something happy happens and something un happy happens. I don't buy magazines about fashion myself. but I like reading them at the waiting place of hospitals. there are many things that I agree as a woman, a housewife and mom. sometimes I found out messages for me in them. there were some unhappy worries in the article about friendships among moms.
These days I hung out with friends from Fhillipine, Korea and Canada more than Japanese. I spend time comfortablely with them even though I don't know English is comfortable or being with them is comfortable. by the way these magagines make me find out something. it is that I'm not a cute mom for my son. since having my son I cut my nails not to hurt my son and don't make my nails. I wear make up once a while and I always wear cudual clothes and don't wear accesorries. mommies are hecktick very much. I have various reasons about it but I'll try to be cute for my son.
since having my son I write memo about my son and my diary in the notebook. and also I often post something on facebook. so I hardly use blogs now. I don't know why but I wanted to post it for some reasons.