Now I have 2 more days left here in NZ. Still cannot believe it.
I have started packing today. I threw lots of stuff away but still have tons of things that I have to keep. I think I'm gonna ship my big backpack from a post office.*sigh* Because its just 20kg that i can bring to the airplane.(JAL sucks.)
A year has passed so fast.
I still remember all the excitement I had when I arrived here.
It's really hard to put my whole experience here into words. My thoughts are so not organized.
There were lots of hard times that I even couldn't write here about. Some things I still regret of.
Although I have constantly had a feeling for Japan, and my family and friends, I never got homesick really.
That's because I knew that they were always here for me no matter what, and Japan was always my home that I could go back. But most of all, I just had most amazing, nicest, and sweetest people always around me here in NZ.
Lots of lots of lots of people have always helped me go through all of this. I learnt so many things from them.
They made me be myself and helped me figure out where I belong, and because of that I was able to do my best. Friends who were always with me, crying and laughing together. I'm so sure that I will be so close to them forever even though we are so far apart. *It's you Michele and Su!*
This laid-backness of kiwis. This blue sky in NZ.
I'm really scared to leave this "home" and jump into another environment which I have no idea of, but I have to make a new path ahead of me and connect this year to something new.
Studying abroad had been my biggest goal in my life so far. I studied so freakin hard to enter my uni and to make study abroad possible.
To achieve this goal is to lose the goal, but the difference is that I actually achieved it. Though it's stressful that I haven't been able to set a new goal yet, I know I can make most of my experiences here and move further ahead.
I've writing some random stuff and it sounds like I've grown up a lot, but the truth is I havent changed much. I am still a lazy as guffy Moe:D so don't expect too much.
I think I will end this blog too, as I feel like putting some period on.
This was def the best- the bestest year of my life.