I wanted to apologize for my attitude in the restaurant on Sunday night. I was still carrying the emotion from the movie, and anything related to that movie could well up tears in my eyes. I get quite emotional towards touching movies that deal with one's life, especially, how a person chooses to live his life. My passion lies in finding potentials in people and helping them realize their full potentials. So, when I see people realize their
life, I feel really moved.
The life is really short. 80 years is nothing in the history of universe. In this short amount of time, we live day by day, getting closer and closer to death every day. But we never think about death unless we become sick. We think that days like this will continue forever, and forget that everything has an end to it. We can only live once, and that's it.
When I think about this, and think how many years are left in my life, and how I want to live my life, the scene comes to my mind where the man (Tao in the movie) was riding a swing in the park he devoted his last moment of his life. When he was faced with death, he stood face
life. What he wanted to see was the park where kids can play even after the rain, and himself watching them from the corner of the park. He did not care for the promotion or the public recognition. Facing the death, he reflected on what it means for him to "live" and decided to start a journey of leadership for himself. It was a short journey,
When I see those people realizing their great potential, even just before their death, and fulfilling their life until the last moment, I cannot stop tears. (As I write this, tears are already falling on my cheeks...just uncontrollable) Whether the park is big or small does not matter at this stage. After all, what we consider our accomplishments are all very minor in the context of history anyway.
I wanted to explain what was going through my mind when I was watching movie and in the restaurant. I could not explain it fully at that time. I was not upset at your comments. Even if you have different perspectives from mine, that's ok because we are all different. It would be nice to sometimes talk about our views, values, how we want to live our lives, what matters most to us, which movies moved our emotion and why, etc. When you asked me "I thought you knew me better", I realized I didn't know much about your values or how you wanted to live your life. We seldom talk about these things, but I think they are important for understanding each other.
But in any case, I should not have cried in the restaurant and made you feel awkward. Sorry about that.