Change your life

Time went so fast and I am wondering sometimes where it's gone. Think about myself I have not much changed last decade. Always same and same old. And still I stand alone. Don't know one day I could share some time with somebody special. I thought it would be happened; but it's never come. One thing it sounds very pathetic to me is that I enjoying being myself. Is it possible to find someone? How could it possible to be with somebody forever till death apart? It is always same question over and over. Hope I can figure out by myself one day. So does it sound pathetic to you?