These words are one of the lines of a chief character MINA in a musical 「Living, MINA SASAKI Story」. I performed this musical three times from last autumn to this summer. And I played one woman MINA who survived in the wartime.She devoted all her life to weak people. She worked as a maternity nurse and made nursery school for working mother.Also she built a care house for old people.She is 92 years old now.
This musical taught a lot of things to me. There was the scene which I could never express well while I played this story at first.Not only I but also my partner said 「it is very difficult to play the scene of the war). Our teacher didn't say OK about this scene.
There were a lot of parts that I couldn't perform with my skill. There were a lot of scenes that I couldn't imagine at all. For example, a flying combat plane and bomb, the people running around desperately, and die...「A dance of war」 that expressed these things. In addition, in an air-raid shelter, air attack alert, fear and a birth ... 「A scene of the delivery in an air-raid shelter」. And 「A scene of a girl who was shot in the field of mulberry」. She didn't imagine her death at all.
Why? Why couldn't I express it well? Because I don't know it.I have been raised in peaceful period so I haven't thought it at all.However, I tried to perform hard her true story as much as possible.
Therefore I studied to read books and watched photos. I could hear a story from a person who experienced it. The story was far 「terror」 more than my imagination.I knew that it was the very terrible because it destroys everything unexpectedly. And it leaves a deep scar in a heart of people.
In our generation we don't know 「the true war」. However, now wars happen somewhere on the earth. Many people are dying now. But it is just only news to hear from TV or newspaper.These kinds of news aren't real for me and I think it is over in other people's affairs.
Therefore I suppose that people knowing 「the fear of the true war」 should convey 「it」. I think that we must not forget the sorrow and the hurt. Because if we forget it, I think that we Japan might cause the war again.I agree we never make a mistake.And I think that it is necessary to tell the deep wound to the unknown people now.Also we must make opportunity to study it more.
Playing this musical was very helpful for me to study the war. And I was able to think about it for myself. Also I felt it is so hard to understand it correctly.I am very glad that I could realize importance of 「telling the war」.