This early morning, I came back to my apartment in Queens.
So I feel cold.
I am very confusing what I want to do. It is not just now. It always keep going in my mind. I know it is not only me. But this is my way and my life. I know it is not so bad, and I don't need self-brame.
Just without thinking it thought and felt. I need to think again if I want. And then, just do that!