Today I saw something on web. These days, I seems a little down. Actually very much down lately. My friend, Nao called me a few days ago. But I could not be agree with what he said. I wanted to be. But it's about the session next Thursday. I want to join and have experience. But my feeling was not good. And I asked why and what happened to me for myself. I know I have depressed mood. But usually I do my best all the time like hanging out, meeting people, talking people and chatting my friends on skype sometimes. But I kind of shut down after Nao called me. Cause Something's wrong. I should know myself and want to get over for growing up more and more.
Anyway I cannot change my thought about singing. I listened to Jazz, Funk, Afro-Cuban, whatever... But some songs, I cannot accept sometimes. There are all beautiful. But if those are not natural voice, I know I cannot accept at all. Not natural voice become strained to their vocal chord. It sounds so painful for me. And my vocal chord also gets tired. And Jazz vocal, that's not my favorite at all. I don't know why. But I feel so all the time.
Not just today, Already I know, I really love music and I really love and love classical Music. What I was notice something today is what I love to sing on the classical music style. I feel I have to see my teacher. I miss Ms. Yoneda so much. Always.. I have her on my brain. I think I have to go back to see her and work together again.