I am usually optimist but not a stress free person. I had such bad weeks - absolutely no luck for me past days that stressed me out so I put my face down and scream into my pillow as loud as I could which actually helped me. Then, I had more bad news today that gave me a finishing blow. I called my Mum to sob out...What a cry baby!
Luckily no one was at home so I decided to cry my heart out. I just didn't want see anyone, didn't want to deal with anyone so I guess it was good timing for me being alone. When I was about to calm down, the boys, Noel(5) and Cole(3) came home. I wiped all my tears and tried to ramain calm but my eyes are red, and swollen up so it was too abvious(--;)
Noel didn't ask me anything but gave me a big hug with saying
Like you always say, if you want to cry, just cry. You shouldn't keep your negative feeling in your mind. Mummy, it's OK. I'm with you. You know what? Use all your tears up so that you don't have to cry when you are really scared! If you cry when you scared, you can't see the way to escape, can you? Mummy, if you are sad, you should cry. That is what tears for! Let your sad feeling away. I'll give you hug. I'll cheer you up. I'm with you so don't worry! "
Raising 2 boys are sometimes really handful but his word gave me confidence that what I did for them past years was right and the days we spent together really meant something. I just realized how lucky I am to have such great kids! Noel is only 5 years old - still like a baby for me but I was so surprised how he grew up both mind and body. Now happy tears are running on my face...
Thank you boyse...Mummy is OK. You gave your Mummy confidence again.