a hot day like this is really not a day for me - especially when i am not feeling well. I am lacking sleep hours. I decided to take a short nap from 9 to 10 and study after that but then when i woke up from my alarm clock, i thought that it was 7 in the morning - i think i am definitely tired. why should i think it is 7 in the morning?! have i gone crazy or somthing? well i know for sure that i am stressed by all the work we need to do.
mr mann called my parents today and had a short conversation. and when i called my mother soon after school, she told me that mr mann told them that it's their fault that i grew up like this. what the hell. do you want me to end his last breath? my parents are evry hard working and i dont care what ever YOU think about that. but i never want anyone to say somthing bad about them because i WILL never forgive that. like do you understand how much they've done throughout their careers? they even faced a life-or-death situation. i dont want anyone to say anything about them. I ADMIRE and LOVE them so shut up!
well anyways - i am not having a good day today. mr kane told me that he liked my art work - but then he suddenly claims that it is a DISASTER infront of the class. and not only once but MANY TIMES. what is his problem?! something about volleyball or what? who cares - i want to quit at this instance man. GODDD well he told me to be the year book president this year - i did not want to listen to him because i had a hellot bad things happening today. well so far - i think that's the only thing i had which was a good news.
my sis was called out during assembly today becuase of her exellence performance at HKIS yesterday. i am glad that she is finally improving her volleyball skills. well i hope she will be a captain and will take over my lil' dream. i'd rather care about my sis than my useless self.
a top uni for hotel management came to our school again. well i was kinda interested in that and i researched for that (for my bro and sis) and i am glad that they visit our school again. well the bad thing is that you have to be turning 18 by the time your enter real courses in swiss. man....i just turned 16. dont tell me that it is common for most of the UNI i wanna go. this really hurt me badly. lost hope and morals. or should i say - i lost everything. i dont want to do anything anymore - i dont want to even think. i really had a bad day today - so i appologize for this dark entry today. i hope this wont continue that much becuase i need some help if it does.