I cannot wake up on time in the morning these days. I get the shivers every morning time for no reason at all. At the time, I always feel uncomfortable, and hard to breathe, and what is more my left ear become harder to hear. These factors get more anxious about everything for me. I absolutely hate these feelings.
I don't wanna feel anymore.
I try to feel better around the clock. I don't like stay at home all day, it makes me feel heat. So I try to go out.
But truthfully, I'd like to someone to do something for me in the depths of my soul. However I cannot say anything for myself and my future. I have been confusing. If I have some helps, next time is also same thing. It means I cannot get over the way without anyone's help. We need some helps to go our ways and our lives. But We decide the point every time by our ownselves for ourselves. It's just in my thinking.
Sometimes, my mind and body is still separated. These and more reason is made me too tired of my body.
Compared with last year, getting better as time goes by.
I try tell someone my feelings and thinkings more as I don't say anything anyone until now. I should not do oversolicitous. I do not need all friendship too delicate to enjoy anymore.
I try to speak from my heart. I try to say No and Yes from my honesty.
Yes,Yes,Yes!I typed Japanese by mistake.Are you going back to Frolida?Don`t feel so alone, We are friend and can talk anything.I wrote in BBS too.I`m looking forward to hear you!Thank you! (2005.02.15 13:56:37)