Ｍｅｈｒ　Light ! (お絵描き日記）

During my stay in Holland, I completely forgot about roses, because I forcused on science, and european cultures. This two years gave me a new insight to many things, and I decided not to do gardening anymore.
But when I returned to my home, my garden was too wild to avoid some gardening. It was more like an jungle than a garden I had to cut down the trees, dig up some unexpected bushes, and a lot of weeding!
After a lot of work, my garden came back again, and at the same time I was in the mood to be a rosarian.
But I learned that make an european-style garden in Japan is much more difficult than doing the same thing in Europe. Eurpoean has much colder weather, longer day time, and fewer insects.
In addition, I do not want to be the same guy that I used to be, I do not want to repeat the same things, and I do want to start many new things.
But what should I do now???
I am not very sure what I would like to do, what kind of life-style I prefer, and what kind of guy I would like to be....