Hi, I can understand how you feel very well. I live in Seattle. After I was laid off 3 years ago, I went back to shcool to learn web programming. It is impossible to find a job. It is good to stay home, but it is really hard to get used to stay home since I was always busy. My biggest struggle is not to feel depressed. I keep telling myself " I will not lose the fight!!!!" Sorry, it takes too long for me to write in Japanese.